What animal would you like to see domesticated?



Today was a good day. I was going to go to training and then it was canceled and instead I went and jammed with Kurt and Sam. We did a little flamenco. Here's some Paco De Lucia


showed up again this morning at 8 am and no one was there again...very frustrating. about to go to training for my second job...how lovely.


man, today i have to go to work at 8 am again. i really hope people are actually there today.


effing went to train today at 7 am and i guess memorial day is a national holiday and we didn't need to show up...didn't get the memo.


incredible song here

finally back home after six nights out


well i'm back in my house now for dinner but then i'm out again. shiiiit. at least i'm eating a bagel right now. yum. breakfast sammiches.


fuck the world...my life is falling apart between my eyes and i can't even tell if i care. i feel like melting into nothing. cutting through the red tape and falling into the abyss. crossing the line, dotting my 'i's and crossing my 't's and living alone in a hole in the ground for the rest of eternity. god mother fucking damn it all. no one to talk to. no one to trust. no one to love. am i delusional or disillusioned? either way i feel as if i'm already fading out. ready to phase out. cutting is the new craze now. which is crazy whichever way you slice the cake. hopefully it's just another phase, starting to fade like the delusions i was led to believe and the illusions passed for genuine. all i want is unadulterated love, the cheesy kind. the kind where you say you'd trust your other with your life and that they're you're best friend and you could talk to them forever. god mother fucking damn it all. they say death brings you to a better place but i doubt it, just a hole in the ground for the rest of eternity. you spend your final days crossing your 't's and dotting your 'i's, or maybe when you were crossing the street you crossed the line and were crushed by a truck and now there's red tape all around you and you're gasping for breath and so desperately trying to claw your way out of the abyss as everything around you slowly but surely melts away into nothing. you hope people care and think you weren't a failure but in the end your life is falling apart in front of your eyes and you don't even realize...fuck the world

please help me